Richard MBC you're crazy Dealing with this pain is never easy Tryna hold your head but I can't reach it And I've been losing all my breath I'm barely breathing I'm distant from your love so I can barely see it And I just want some trust but your love is deceiving And I can never change Focus on myself because I go through pain I have left you all alone and I know that I'm shamed Tryna foster peace on this plane I'm tryna love on you but your love is never the same To tell the truth a nigga really been broke I'm distant from your love and I'm losing all my hope I'm tryna smoke up on these jokes so I can cope And it makes it worse I think I'm sinking through the floor And I'm tryna be the same but this pain keep on creeping I'm tryna listen to this music tryna avoid all my demons And I know I'm staying strong tryna be the same but I'm hollow And I've been tryna foster peace while I lay on my own I'm tryna be the same but I'm a victim of pain You say that you want me but I know your intentions they never change You have left me all alone how the *** can I be shamed You have broke my heart now I've been tryna with this pain is never easy Tryna hold your head but I can't reach it And I've been losing all my breath I'm barely breathing I'm distant from your love so I can barely see it And I just want some trust but your love is deceit Note to self I've been by myself I'm all alone And you know that I'm hurt so why would you do me wrong And I've been by myself thinking is your love ever gonna help And I rap about this pain cause I'm broken Cold hearted nigga that's what I chose Scared of change don't wanna go back to the old And I'm tryna be the same but that pain keep on hurting And I want your love but it be hurting Why you had to do me wrong Why you gotta lie You can see the truth from in my eyes And I've been hurt and don't ask me why And I've been scarred and I cannot hide To tell the truth I'm tired of all this pain And I just wanted to go away But I know I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for this pain But at the same time I'm scared of change Cause all this pain is in my system and it's in my veins Dealing with this pain is never easy Tryna hold your head but I can't reach it And I've been losing all my breath I'm barely breathing I'm distant from your love so I can barely see it And I just want some trust but your love is deceiving